September 18th, 2009, by admin
ah grad school has been utmost hard. everyday i cross my fingers that there wont be another assignment but instead at the end of the day something like 10 more assignments are added onto the ever growing list.
this is campus. it used to be an old greyhouse bus maintenance depot. its actually quite picturesque on a sunny day as the backdrop is downtown sf with the transamerica building in plain view ( i ‚ô• my cameraphone haha, pretty good quality no?)
in writing class (which by the way is my most dreaded class) we were given an assignment to write to the prompt “i will never forget the day when…” so i expressed my feelings about school. this is in no way polished and if my professor saw this, she would probably find all sorts of writing errors… but its a glimpse into my mind….and this is a blog so who cares. haha
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i will never forget the day when i first stepped food on CCA grounds. my emotions were (and still are) mixed. “did i make the right choice?” “will i just be blowing $60k on nothing?” “how come everyone seems so much more intellectual than me?” three weeks later looking back these questions still linger. yet what gives me hope is the fact that all my other friends who have been through various disciplines of grad school tell me that “things will get better.”
i stepped foot onto the CCA campus holding onto that fact on sept 1 as a full time student. this was a weird experience because i had just quit my job where i was working and making money comfortably only to place myself in a situation where nothing seemed certain. “at least i get to call myself a grad student,” i repeated over and over again in my head. but even that wasnt enough to calm my nerves.
three weeks go by and nothing seems to have changed. maybe i am more used to where my classrooms are on campus or when my classes begin and end but i still have no idea where all this will take me. i am still intimidated by the level of deep thought my peers exhibit in class. i am still unsure if ill even pass my classes. “things will get better…things will get better…things will get better…”
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